Wednesday, June 10
Coming clean.
We, no one, can possibly be good friends again after a huge tiff or whatever that seems like it. Even if I convince myself that it is mildly possible, it truely isn't. Because mistakes will still be mistakes and the same would continue with no end, just like a ball, rolling. And when this ball finally stops rolling, it'll be when the friendship finally ends. What's the point of saying that something means alot when after saying it, there is no difference, where everything is at a standstill. So like a bystander, I point to that ball, barely rolling, and say, it's going to stop soon. But then it doesn't, because there is a hill and it rolls and rolls and rolls.
There is a car. The car rolled over the ball. The ball is deflated. The ball doesn't exist now. All good things come to an end. It was great, and now, the ending.
Over this period of time, I've realised something so simple, something that needs no explanation. What is broken, is broken and even if its mended, there'll be so much imperfections. Like the cracks, the scars, those wrecked and destroyed. People can console themselves that maybe one broken thing will make it stronger, like how they have gained experience, grew as a person, as a character.
And it's not important whether these friends remains friends anymore. Previously, I would have written- It's not important whether these friends remains friends anymore, unless they change. But now I know no change is going to happen, because that glimmer of seeming hope is infantile, because quote famous saying, a leopard will never change its spots.
So this, is me coming clean right on this space, this spot, and it truely reflects my every thought. Some thing are just beyond reconcilation, and this unfortunately, is one of those.
express yourself {10:08 PM}
