Wednesday, December 31
Hehe it's kinda funny how this world is hehehe~
Like how D asked A for advice, and C asked B for advice. Hehe and it's like in the end although D and C is talking, it's like A and B are talking. Hehe quite cute no? And the same A and B are soughted for advice from E and F, hehe. So A and B should just talk to each other forever hehe~ I'm B hehe guess who's A. Love you A muackszzx HAHAHA :)


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Monday, December 29
I wna gorge lots of food down and I want nice yummy food that taste heavenly ok? Hehe, omg I wna eat!
Have been seeing yhs quite abit these days hehe:) And *ehmm* cycling tmrw at 0800? Haha yea sure, I'm waiting for your call. Bet it'll never come, or maybe, at 1200. Hehe. Study with hbx and yhs today and that hbx like finally, but reluctantly dragged her ass out of house. Haha ok wtv, I'm damn sick of studying luhhh~ Ok, it's not even studying, it's doing homework. And ew, everyone is getting tuition and I feel left behind because I refuse to have (minus away j2 help! that is really a must) urggggggg, this is annoying, I'm annoyed by myself. Haha ok wtv, dont care me k! See you all soon, tmrw is gna be a long day, long but good I guess. And the following day will be a even better day. Then it's the new year, with new resolutions, and tons of work and revision... Ew.


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Sunday, December 28
Hi there, Chemistry suck socks and I bear complete abhorrence for it. I can barely manage a single problem and this stinks. These passing few days have been great, trying to do homework, watching pride&prejudice, reading texts, sleeping over, catching up with dearests, and sleeping. Lacking exercise here because can't bring myself to crawl out of bed in the ungodly hour! Holidays have been ok and I've changed thoughts about 09 now. How bad can it get compared to 08! I think this year has been one crap year if you minus away all the good things. But good things were great, just that bad things were really bad. So, new year, new beginnings, new challenges (eg.studying 247). K, so before the new year starts, I shall start on the challenge! Bye bye.


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Thursday, December 25
Dont you all dread Countdown9? I do :( I dont want 09 to come, because it means that I'll be J2 along with all my classmates and friends and blah!! I hate it man, ew. And yet, I'm throwing a Countdown Party... What irony eh. I seriously don't don't don't don't don't want 09 to come :( :( :( I hate it man. Tons of school work, lots of training (fun!), balancing time, going out with friends (and the lack of time to do so) and exams and block tests and getting back grades, sitting for prelims, and for now, the thought of it all. It's so yucky and everything. For the big big big A levels. Oh crap, why did I put myself through this. I'm sorry if you had to read this and spoil your festive mood, but I'm really feeling down now, thinking about 09. I abhor the arrival of the new year, and I don't see why anyone should celebrate it. But I am gna celebrate it. Can I not? :( There's nothing to celebrate about, really...

Ok, I'm snapping out of this mode *the-wallowing-in-self-pity-or-whatever-you-call-it-mode* right now and I'm gna have my fking celebration and enjoy 08 and heck 09 and I'll deal with all the crap that the year gives and so are all of you! We're going to get straight A's for A levels. That's why it's called A level right! Must get A. Ok wtv, I'm being cranky as usual... So embrace 08 while you can :D


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Wednesday, December 24
I wna make a gingerbread house too! Looks so pretty right?

Pity I'm not into Chirstmas. Shoot me for saying this or what lor, but truely, I'm not. It's just a public holiday to me but it's not much different to me since it's already the school holidays. Oh well, I'm what you call an atheist, and atheist don't have anywhere to go after they die... Or something along those lines. Oh well, why am I even talking about this in the supposed festivity? I guess during christmas you'll get to er get together with your family and friends and everything and be merry. Yea merry! Omg, I am so annoying I feel like shooting myself. Ok! I've made up my mind, I'm going to make a house, or a something out of cookies one day. One day... You just wait... You'll see a pretty picture of a cookie house or something on this blog! Pinky promise. Omg, eww wth, pinky promise? Wtv la, just you wait :)



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Tuesday, December 23
I'm happy hehe. Today I finally touched my numerous worksheets and I found out that there is ALOT to do and ALOT undone. Haha, but I'm still happy. There's the festive season and the joyful season and a million gazillion things to be happy about wheeeee~ Lol, wtv la hehe. Maybe one day, I can look at homework and subjects like chemistry... literature... economics... mathematics... and be genuinely happy. Later I must go do my epps thingy and the osvap thingy that is annoying the crap out of me. I hate it man! Esp the later... hate to the max! But what to do? I got myself into this mess. Ok, I need to get the ball rolling and start on epps first :) Bye!


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Monday, December 22
Hehe hi! These few days had been really great. Haha, life at home idling away beats everything else. I went swimming today hehe, fun right! And I read Othello (: I hate Iago for being such a jerk, Othello is such an idiot, Cassio is just as dumb and Will/S is just amazing, I guess. If Lit is just about reading and reading and nothing else then it would be the best subject. But bloody no, its not, and I hate it omg. Hehe no la, jk only.

Anyway! Meet Snowy :D I hate her man! She bite me. Hehe I was asking for it. She was like crazy biting everything and I went to stop her hehe. But apart from that bite, she's the most adorable thing ever in the whole world.


Hehe I've still been thinking quite abit nowdays, but hehe not alot la. I've been thinking about my friends! I realise that I like alot of people, it's only a few people that I don't like hehe. And friends, it's about being happy around them and being yourself. If you're not capapble of doing that, then you won't have that friend anymore. You cannot consider that someone to be your friend, I guess. If you wna be my friend, I must be able to make you smile and be happy, otherwise, you cannot be my friend. And you must make me happy too! Haha wtv la, I'm just rambling as usual. Don't mind me k (:

I think I became nicer over the holidays hehe. I'm like alienated from the rest of Earth and popluation and locked up at home. No bad people to influence me to become mean and bitchy. Hehe&I'm just too lazy to go out. This hols, I went out mostly for trngs, which is a must, and is fun btw heh. I only met up with one grp of friend from sec sch! Ok, maybe two. Nv see my section, or island or hehe nvm, I'm sure there is next time. I miss alot of people but I'm like too lazy to go anywhere. So come find me at my house k (:
Or maybe if I like you enough, I'll be nice and move my lazy butt out of my comfy house!




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Saturday, December 20

Disney for you.
I wna go Florida Disney. And I wna fulfil my dreams (but i must find it first)... Meanwhile, study is the right thing to do. Wasted like million gazillion time on everything except studying ): must must must study but it's hard. How? Don't worry I'll solve my own problem heh. See y'll soon k bye.


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Hi I'm back! If you all even know that I left (:
2Two things I liked about hk was the Shopping and the DimSum. Apart from that, I hate everything else. And above everything else, loved the rest. Don't mind me, I'm cranky. Goodnight.


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Friday, December 19
Introducing you to my old life back in sec4 where I had this Island clique (:

Not very close now, nothing like sticky chewing gum or glue, haven't seen them in ages xcept for michelle and if you count jac when I saw her at standardC. Haven't been catching up w/ my old friends at all. Maybe somtime soon, maybe after A levels, maybe never, but then, they'll always be my friends hehe.





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Wednesday, December 17
Take this quiz:
1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America contest.
4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize.
5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winners for best actor actress.
6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners.
How did you do? The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Achievements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.

Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one:
1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel, appreciated and special.
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.
6. Name half a dozen heroes whose stories have inspired you.
Easier? The lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care. Pass this on to those people who have made a difference in your life.


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Monday, December 15
Nicole Tan JN
Anyway, I clearly remembered you demanding a post about you here, apparently because you say that viewership here is higher... Ben si le omg. Ok, so how do I dedicate a post to you? I got no idea. Hehe I try k, I'll start trying now. You're such a great great great friend and you can be the best friend in the world if you want to (: You try to be nice, pretend to be nice, but you're not really nice! Hehe, I'm just kidding. You're one of the nicest person I've ever met in my whole life ( if you minus all the bitchy and hypocraite things away ). But oh crap, everyone would be nice if you minus away all the un-nice things they do. Right?! Hehe, I'm not making any sense but who cares yea yea? Tho we've know each other for like only >1year, you're like one of my goodest friend hehe. And it's kind of weird right, we became good friends because of some dirty ditching going around. But it turned out good, at least for me (: I gained a really good friend, almost a best friend! Hehe, no best friends for me rmb? Traumatic encounters hehe. Thks for everything and for being who you are (: Cheezzsssy not?! Now, you owe me one... And I'm having alot of fun in hk now :D And rmb your catch phrase? Wo de yi ke xin muah muah, see you 22! Byebye.


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Sunday, December 14
Bfs for life ( Yea sure, we are too lazy to even meet up )
Hbx chose, 14 apparently so here it is, on the 14th! See what lengths I go to entertain my friends. Hope that they read/see this or else all my painstaking efforts will go to waste. Entertaining them even while I'm away. Hehe. I'm such a nice girl, I swear. So, treasure me and love me. I might be back with bird flu but I certainly hope not. Anyway, really miss you all lots lots lots. Ya actually I'm lying la, hehe, don't miss you all at all. I know y'll won't miss me too hehe. Lazy people, birds of the same feather flock together. Rmb we had this pen or was it a pencil? We bought for someone's birthday or stayover or smth. Ok, wtv, I'm having lots of fun now this moment you are reading this. Hah! Hehe k k k bye~ Love me(:



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Saturday, December 13
Hehe hi, I'm talking flight soon yay, getting out of this horrid place. Haha, nah I'm just kidding. Miss you all lots and one more thing... Look out for scheduled post here, tho I'll be away hehe. So, have fun and play your hearts out. Don't study yet k! Wait for me to come back and we'll all study together. Miss you all lots! (:


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Wednesday, December 10
"When you're little, night time is scary because there are monsters hiding right under the bed. When you get older, the monsters are different. Self doubt, loneliness, regert... And though you may be older and wiser, you still find yourself scared of the dark."


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Tuesday, December 9
My class. My happy class. Or maybe, my not so happy class. My cliquish class. My fun class. My gossipy class. My bitchy class. We're a class whether we like it or not and I'll like to believe that all of us like each other. But sometimes, it's hard to lie to yourself. But nah, despite everything, we're fun if we want to be. And cool, definitely. Here's some pictures that N drew, so enjoy! (Click on pictures to enlarge)

1)Andrea 2)Tara 3)CaiLing 4)Roze
5)Lyn 6)Brian 7)Sarah 8)Joan
9)HuiLing 10)Edmund 11) XioaHui 12)Atiqah
13)SimYee 14)Fuzzy
15)Velvarie 16)HuiMing 17)Debra 18)Fazall
19)Lynette 20)Marissa 21)Nicole
You know you love us xoxo A101


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Monday, December 8
Feel good after one long long long day of sleep! I slept till 1pm today hehe. I'm convinced that sleep makes a person happy. Yesterday I was watching Grey's Anatomy: Sleep, it’s the easiest thing to do, you just close your eyes. But for many of us, sleep seems out of our grasp. True? I love the show alot and I've watched till S5E10 thks to hs for the link! And today, I read half ok King Lear and I feel happy :D I am amazed by him, he is such an amazing man.

"This is the excellent foppery of the world, that, when we are sick in fortune, -often the surfeit of our own behaviour, -we make guilty of our disasters the sun, the moon, and the stars: as if we were villains by necessity; fools by heavenly complusion; knaves, thieves, and treachers, by spherical predominance; drunkards, liars, and adulterers, by enforced obedience of planetary influence; and all that we are evil in, by a divine thrusting on: an admirable evasion of whoremaster man, to lay his goatish disposition to the charge of a star!"

He puts everything together so nicely... And it just makes sense, it all falls into place, despite the fact that his works were done more than a century or two ago. We all want to be extraordinary.


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Sunday, December 7
Here's a story from blog hopping:

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, she had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn’t love her anymore..I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a months time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day,we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life tome. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me, .. she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned myface away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, it was just like our wedding day.But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school.I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office… jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind… I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote: I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.


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Hello! Standard Chartered today. I'm damn tired now. I really need sleep but omg, I got woke up for dinner ok... Seriously, dinner for my sleep?! Annoying ok. Haha anyway watched Quarantine yesterday and it was the worst show ever in my life. Even that is an understatment. Then ya, stayed up the whole night lor, with occassional dozing off. So I'm alot sleepier, and twenty dollars richer. Worth it huh?


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Friday, December 5
Journey towards self discovery. Whatever, so lame. Damn annoyed with everything la bye.


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Thursday, December 4
Suddenly, now, I feel like a puppet. Putting up a puppet show for everyone around me to see. Controlled, like my life has been plotted our for me and I'm just acting out everything. Maybe, not a puppet. An actor. Life, as a stage. I feel restricted. Everyone is observing my every movement, scrutinizing my every step. And this blog, I got no idea who reads it. I average fifty a day, maybe people just refresh the page or something, it's kind of scary, because why is anyone interested in my life. Gossip, yes ah yes. I feel a certain sense of unjust now. It's not my fault, none of it is, and yet I'm cast in such an unpleasant light and I take all the negative view from the audience. Just because I don't say anything means that whatever the other person says is true? No. I'm going to tell the world tomorrow. The world is my audience to my staged performance. Don't worry, I don't actually think life as a stage. It's purely metaphorical.


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Wednesday, December 3

I wna eat pancakes tomorrow so I'll hope that I'll wake up early enough to cook them and also I hope that it'll be nice and not awful so that I'll not be ashamed to force it down the throats of my team mates and now I'll all tired from the whole day training and I need to sleep because I think I'm rambling and I also think that I should stop, so now, I stop. Goodnight.


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Tuesday, December 2

Out with my most favourite people in the entire world. They top my list (: Well, at least for now. Hehe, want to hear what we did today? If you dont, just stop reading now, goodbye.

So we went to Hereen to eat at the Jap Restaurant, which was not very good, but hehe, it was just fun and stupid. Don't ask me why, I don't know too.

Yap Hwee San! Omg, we are seriously on different frequency lol. She has like this weird TJ aura. Nah, I'm just kidding, ok wait, maybe I'm not. When I first met her ourside my house, (we decided to walk to Simei MRT in the hot hot sun!) she asked me to scratch her bag... Then she told me to talk to her finger... (you know the joke? when someones don't want to talk to you and then they'll say: talk to my hand!). ANd then I think I mastermind to run away from her at kino and she ended up paging for Rachel hehe. And she angry! Although she claims she is not angry... Hehe I think it was damn funny~ Ok, enough of her right now.

Everyone was early today(except HS) for the first time even late queen LWT. So after eating, we decided to go drink coffee hehe. And after coffee, it was time for dinner/snack so we went to taka to eat 1. Noodle 2. Korean potato 3. Korean spicy rice cake 4. Sushi 5. ToriQ yummmmm, hehe. One whole day of eating and eating.

And R is going to fly away tomorrow. I'll give a a call of love tomorrow to say bye bye to her hehe. Am I such a nice friend or am I such a nice girl? Take your pick. Ok, I shall go continue with my Greys Season 5. Wheee, I'm so happy hehe. See you all soon! Match tomorrow, scary hehe, if I'm playing. If not, it'll not be scary at all. (: K bye!


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Monday, December 1
You can judge me for all you want and I don't care. Not one bit. If you think that I'm cool, I'm not. So get over it because I'm so not cool.

All of a sudden, I feel so silly. So so silly, doing everthing for someone who I thought matters so much to me. But in actual fact, it didn't mean anything at all. Nothing. Being a coward and saving all your ego while I throw my pride away. You lie to your friends, you run away, do all that just because you are scared because of your screwed up life. And know what? It's not my fault that your life is so screwed up, and I'm done helping you. Everything happens for a reason and the reason why you came into my life was to show me how perfect my life can be because I have such loving parents and sister. I am close to my cousins, my friends, and they love me just as much as I love them. I don't run away and lie and pretend, I face reality and do whatever I want and think is right. I may sound like a bitch now, but truely, I'm not. I'm just being truthful and that's something that you'll never be able to do. I'm sorry if I have ever hurt you and it'll never happen again.


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Hello! The weekends were great and bad. But it was more great than bad (: Training today at spans hehe, it's so far. I don't think I like it anymore plus the bookings are always in the morning which means I have to wake up super early! They always meet at 645am at Pasir Ris mrt then they'll call me and I'll meet them at 7am. Damn early right! Sleepy... Hehe I'm going to sleep right after this! Oh ya, anyone has Greys Anatomy Season 5? I WANT! Hehe, just finish Season 4 yesterday. Out with my <1<2<3<4 tomorrow and Volleyball camp on 3&4 how fun you tell me? Hehe I should stop talking to myself shouldn't I? Bye!


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