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Friday, October 31

Hello! Yesterday was Chinese A level paper and the Zuo Wen was the same Promos wheee. I was like jumping up and down ( My brain pictured it! ) Hehe then after that went to eat at Whitesands hehe. Training nowdays are fun except the pt part! Hehe yea yea. Anyway this morning I woke up and bakebakebake! Hehe you know the lj community! Hehe they got alot of cute recipe. Hehe today went sch for op dry run. So sian. Anyway, hehe I went home slack and watch gossip girl and ugly betty and then eat my special dinner that my daddy cooked! Yum yum yum! Heh, then went out to meet L and N for our little halloween gathering! So cute right! Pictures soon hehe. Ok! I go sleep le, tmrw I'll jog to the beach to san san xin! Hehe ok goodnight! And stay happy everyone!

express yourself {11:44 PM}

Wednesday, October 29

Hehe specially added for my beloved someone (:

I<3<3<3you

When Mich was still here and when it was a long long time ago hehe.

I sometimes wonder what would happen if she was still here (:

Let's be depressed since the mood nowdays is so depressing! Hehe, aiya no la, I don't even feel depressed at or. Not even a single tinge of emo-ness. Hehe. Aiya whatever la. Sometimes people just read too much into things you know? Like if I meant something, they will think of something far fetched and ya ya omg can't wait for tomorrow to be over! ( The chinese part to be specific! )

Actually I don't mind chinese and I quite like it. I just dislike the exam part... But then again, if there were no exams, would I still be studying it? You know the chi idioms are all quite cute one! Like shen mi yi jing zhu chen shu fan le ( The rice is cooked ) and many many! Hehe.

Anyway anway, just a few day days ago, or was it yesterday, we were having this discussion on family. ( This is what Arts people discuss about as oppose to idk what the Sciene people discuss about! And we had this funny conversation about the reason to why people have armpit hair and why man had nipples. Can you believe it... ) Some people think that family is most important while others have more important commitments. Well, you can say that nothing is more important than family and I would agree to that but this is only what I feel for now. I hope that my view won't change over time and over the years. Because I feel that it is becoming more and more difficult to give up everything else. Friends, school, cca, activities, trips, events... So many things. And now, we're only in JC. Hey you know what? You're not a good role model and you are not playing your role well, whatever I don't like this fact about you. Hmfff hehe. I don't know what's gotten into me hehe whatever. Pre exam jitters, I'm rambling on and on about weird stuffs and guess what? I should stop now. Bye.

express yourself {8:52 PM}

Tuesday, October 28

Does it mean that if containing your emotions meant that you don't feel anything
Does it mean that if no one knew but you meant that it never mattered
Does it mean that if you run and run and run away it would all go away
Does it mean that if time pass and after time goes everything else goes

Look carefully and all you can see is regret and dissapointment

express yourself {9:43 PM}

Monday, October 27

WelcomeKids

We've been thus protected for some sixteen years. It's not the education system that our eyes are finally opened to. It's life- the unfairness of it. This is the beginning, a microcosm of the reputed world.

express yourself {4:25 PM}

Sunday, October 26

( Click to enlarge :D )

So tired! Hehe I tried to study chinese this morning omg right?! (: Amazing amazing and in the afternoon went cycling. Don't know what's with cycling nowdays... Keep cycling. It's so tiring but it's a good way to get a round. It's cheap, wait no, it's free and it's like exercise at the same time! Heehe so met up with the rest at ECP and continued cycling and we ate at Lagoon yum yum. Hehe I'm chilling now. So shuang kuai~ Hehe shopping anyone anytime soon?

express yourself {8:42 PM}

Saturday, October 25

Hello world. I have so many thoughts about so many things so what do I do? I just have to cast it all away I guess. So far the leaf is still good. Hehe I think it is going to wither, it's just a matter of time. But oh well! Yesterday M and I were very angry! Like fuming mad! Like you know got fire coming out of our ears and nose and mouth! Grrrr... But since I'm on this stupid self imposed campaign about being nice to the people I like, I shall be cool about this *Trying*

So anyway, slacked my whole day away. It's so comfortable and relaxing to just slack around doing nothing hehe. And just yesterday we had a very last minute swim session. *Beams* I like last minute stuff that are enjoyable. Awww. Tomorrow cycling hehe so fun yay. Then eat eat eat at Lagoon I suppose, or maybe... Long Beach/Jumbo if my companion/s have money and is/are in good mood hehe. Ok, off to enjoy myself with some telly watching or sleeping. Bye.

express yourself {9:59 PM}

Friday, October 24

Hehe you know what? I'm going to turn over a new leaf and be nice to people I like. But guess what? No matter how much you turn, it will still be the same leaf. So just keep hopes up high and it may just stay there. Hehe and shut up, I dont care about what you all say because hehe shhhh secret. Ok! See you all later when I come back hehe bye.

express yourself {5:20 PM}

Thursday, October 23

(: Bake bake now! Hehe but I v sad cos the first batch v ugly. Awww, but what to do? Trng just now was cool and fun yea hehe. Yay, I'm so tired now and there's sch tomorrow. Hehe wth, i never ever do this but for bx...

The person who tagged you is?
BX
Your relationship with her is?
I hate her(:
Your 5 impressions of her?
The dirtiest thing ever
Who doesn't bathe
And doesn't brush her teeth
The biggest pervert
Always using dirty tactics...
(and the list goes on)
The most memorable thing she has done for you?
Every single thing(: Being there for me to bitch abt every single thing to(:
If she becomes your lover, you will?
Jump down the buliding
If she becomes your lover, the thing she has to improve on would be?
Just stop talking and she will be perfect
If she becomes your enemy, you will?
Be v v v v sad and emo
The thing you want to tell them now is?
You suck and I hate doing this
How do you think people will feel around you?
Why do I care
The characteristics you love about yourself are?
Being irritating and bitchy
On the contrary, characteristics you hate about yourself are?
Being bitchy and irritating
The most ideal person you want to be is?
Hehe ben si le
For people who care and love you, anything to say to them?
I love you all lots lots lots <3

express yourself {9:43 PM}

Tuesday, October 21

Part 1:

It's such a relieve, like a huge stone lifted off us. We'll try to smile from now on. Thank you for the good things, feel so thankful. At least there's still hope. I just care about my friends... And the rest, I wish the best for them too but I just want my friends to be ok. We're all selfish. Let's all try to see happy and see hope. All out for OP and CHI k! Jiayou everyone! Snap out of irritated self alrd! See you all! Bye (:

Part 2:

Nicole! We'll all be behind you and we all love you alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot. I hope that you can go on with us. Just know that we'll always be there for you whenever you need us. And I'll always be there for you when you need me! Be strong like you already are and be happy too okay? (:

express yourself {8:20 PM}

Monday, October 20

This is the 444 post. It means DIE DIE DIE in chinese. So whatever.

I'm damn pissed and angry and bitchy today and although I say that these emotions are baseless, they are far from that. There are so many things to be angry about. So many things to be pissed about. So many things to be bitchy about.

Yes yes, I freaking know that life has the happy side to it. But I don't see it now. Not for today... Let me be frank now ok? Don't comment and don't judge. Just read if you really must and if you can't stand what you are reading, just go. Go away. I don't mind, seriously.

So you want to know what today is the above mentioned day? Because of every single thing that happened. From morning to night. Every single ticking second that goes on the hickery dickery fucking clock.

Cycling was so... sweaty and irritating. Fun yes but parental objections, they said it in a very subtle way but it was strong enough and Lyn parent's too.

Then when I went to school at the ungodly 830am when we were supposed to meet, the group members were not there. What do you want me to feel? Doctor appointment, sleep late, everything, whatever. It's not that its not right. It's just... Irritating. And here, I'm not saying that I'm not irritating. I FREAKING AM. But for such an irritating person to get irritated, it's quite a feat. The magnitude of irritating-ness. So that is fucked up. It's like, why do I even bother to wake up and go to school when everyone else is not there? I can sleep in right? And I also went out till late and I had to do my I&R myself right? Why must I do my part of the OP when I can come to school and do. It's like you make mistakes. You should learn from it. The mistake was made just some 3 days ago where we were the last group to hand in the WR because of the fault of everyone. And this news is like, spreaded to everyone. Check out this blog http://08s106.blogspot.com/ Yup, that's how screwed up we are. So ya, me posting this would most probably make things more screwed up but you know what? Things are so bloody screwed that it can't get any screwer. In fact, it can only get better. So whatever, stop being so selfish and think for everyone else.

This includes myself. I make mistakes too so shut up. And I vaguely remember being a mistake. Which is another angry/piss/bitchy issue. I feel so screwed because of this whole mistake thing and it has been bugging me for the longest time ever ever ever. So yes.

And as if the day couldn't get any worst, N came crying to the canteen. I really didn't know what to do. Helpless... I have very few good good good friends and always, things must happen to them. N, W, are most probably going to retain and I really don't know what to do.

Then I wanted to find comfort where I used to. But, I think that this place where I find comfort pains me too much that it doesn't help comforting me anymore. If you get what I mean. You wouldn't get it. I still miss this comfort. Alot.

N cried and W is going to cry tomorrow. Yet I cannot do anything to help. Won't you all feel useless? I do. Why must such things happen to good good good friends. I dont care about anyone else... Why them. I can't get over it. Just leave me and give me some time.

Then B, W and I met for lunch. It was possibly the few better thing that happened today. I know many people read this blog. Some don't confess, but they do. I don't care. You know what? We feel that you can't possibly be sick all the time and your uncle cant possibly break his leg all the time. Maybe it's true maybe it's not but it always happens, so how do you blame us? How? It's ok to tell the truth you know? We understand. It is less irritating. You dont have to avoid me, avoid us after you read this because this is my angsty/pissed/irritated/bitchy post and I probably don't mean the things that I just said. But you know what? These are just my thoughts, my sentiments. Everyone thinks about these things all the time. It's just that they don't say it out. I'm saying it out now.

So I returned to school, neglecting my poor group leader, which is also my good friend. Part of the reason why I'm so pissed and irritated at myself because after judging everyone else and getting pissed at them, I run away for lunch myself. Is this justified? No. That's why I feel so... Urghhh. Whatever.

So they day didn't just end. Yes, happy things here and there, but not significant because I was trapped in my own little bubble and world of unhappiness, thinking about all sorts of negativity. Had to cycle home. It was cool, undoublty but I was so tired. It was fun but I was tired. You see the contradiction?

Then I reach home and I'm faced with this pile of work even thought it is after the exams. I feel irritated. Then N smsed me. I felt sad. Then W called me and we talked. Tried to do whatever I can but I still feel sad. I don't know if it's for myself or for her and for them. You know it's so bloody unfair. This school system, so bloody sucky. It's so unfair. Like you know people can promote just because of the cca they are in. It's not to say that he don't deserve it. He is my friend too and I feel happy for him. But I feel v v v v v unfair for everyone else. I dont know why, I just do. Then L smsed me and tell me that she got scolded by her parents. And then KJ told me that he didn't do well for his exams and he's very worried about his combination.

You see, everyone is like so... sad. It's like, everything is going so wrong. I just want to go to sleep now and hope that everything will be ok after I wake up. But now, I'm going to do my op slides and script which will be dued by 11pm. Which is another thing that make me pissed. I'm sure at least one person will not hand in by 11pm due to whatever stupid reason they have. Whatever.

So this is the end to the 444 post. It should be the longest post ever and the most frank post I have ever posted in my life. So if you don't like what I'm saying, dont read. Close your eyes and rub them and go wash them. Then, you can delude yourself and then pretend that you never read any of this content before. See you all tomorrow. Goodbye.

express yourself {9:24 PM}

Sunday, October 19

Anyway, one long day today. Talk about it another day, see you. Bye

express yourself {10:13 PM}

Saturday, October 18

One long day! *Beams* Happy happy! Woke up at 11 this morning and watched a movie. Then, went to Novena to shop! Hehe yay so happy. Bought a pair of slippers. Hehe so happy! Very long never go to Novena already! So just now, I visited United Square too! And there was this overated cinderella thing where young girls dressed up prettly. Quite cute la hehe. I didn't spend alot of money today ok! Yay me. Then after my shopping trip, I went for family feast (: YUM! Hehe met everyone at our favourite restaurant at some shopping centre heehe so yummy ok! Then went over to Grand's house to have fun and then, wheee. Yay so now, I'm lying on my comfy bed and watching TV and preparing to sleep and waiting for tomorrow to come! (:

express yourself {11:47 PM}

Thursday, October 16

Hehe, cute right! My dad cooked lunch for me! It's the yummiest thing in the world ok! (: Yay, I'm a happy kid wheeeeeeeeeeeee~ It's like more than the breakfast cereal that I wanted! Hehe, so happy.

Then went to school after receiving a terrorising call from my pw st. Omg, hehe I called xioahui immediatey and that PIG was sleeping soundly ok! I called her like 6 times ok! Please, I was so scared la. Ya, then we go see our teacher and she made it sound so bad ): But! Turns out it's ok after all, I guess. Just a few minor mistake here and there, but a major word count issue. But, we'll be ok (:

Then then had ogl interview and after that, went for dinner with 3 cute people hehe! So cute. Heheh I think I damn pig, finish eating popeyes still hungry hehe. Guess what happened next? Hehe, we went home. Fun right hehe. Ok yay (: I'm happy and tired and I'm going to do my pw soon wheeeeeee~ Hehe, so glad it's all going to be over very very very soon (:

express yourself {10:29 PM}

Wednesday, October 15

Can I have yummy brekfast cereal with full cream fresh milk tomorrow morning please? Thank you <3

And BX BENSILE

express yourself {10:26 PM}

Tuesday, October 14

Prose, Confession

Let’s all be open and truthful about this now. It’s been so long and there’s nothing to hide anymore. The feelings diminished over time and that is just that. It is the sad and inconsolable truth. Let’s not have any hard feelings, because in this world, we’ll learn from our vast and numerous mistakes. Then, we try not to commit them again. Hopefully everything goes smoothly from now onwards. We’re hopeful.

express yourself {10:01 PM}

http://funnyjunk.com/funny_pictures/5079/Banned+From+Kmart/

Funny piece of crap (: I want someone who can make me happy!

School today was boring, dreary, dry, dull, humdrum, irksome, monotonous, stuffy, tedious, tiresome, uninteresting, weariful, wearisome, weary and it is exceedingly abhorrent, aggravating, annoying, calamituous, discommodious, disconcerting, excruciating, execrable, galling, invidious, irksome, mortifying, nettlesome, pestiferous, pestilent, pestilential, provocative, repellant, repulsive, vexatious. Ew.

express yourself {5:07 PM}

Monday, October 13

Hehe have a laugh! (:

Hehe, if I'm dying would you all save me?! Hehe I know then answer... NO. Hehe, everyone would rather me dead. But its ok! Hehe. Damn tired. Life is so mundane and boring. But then, I'm satisfied with this life. And please, I'm not emoing now so dont be stupid. Hehe ok bye! Have fun with life and PW.

express yourself {9:06 PM}

Sunday, October 12

Hello! Past days have been busy busy! Hehe, so fun, and I haven't been happier. And contrary to popular believe, I REALLY AM HAPPY. Seriously... and to account for the last post's "weird guy", that really is NOTHING. Like you know sometimes, things should be taken more literally. Yea, so I guess that's pretty much how I failed lit, taking things way too literally... hehe. I shall report my mundane but fulfilling life to you all now k! Cycling, bbq, movie, stayover, pw ( from 9am to 7pm! ), slacking at home (: Heheh isn't my life full of activities? Aiya, ok ok I need to go fill up some form and I need to sleep! Heehe ok bye!

express yourself {10:31 PM}

Friday, October 10

It's kinda funny how everything changes and now, I ask myself, what's wrong with the world. Like seriously. I really don't know. Everything is like... WRONG. There's this weird guy and I don't know, how can weird people... ah whatever, I shouldn't be so freaking mean and judgemental I guess. Everything is really like WRONG. Not to say that nothing is going right, but really, generally, it's just all going wrong.

express yourself {9:14 PM}

Thursday, October 9

If only such rainbows appear all the time

I think that I'm more or less cleared/safe for this Promos? I don't know, kinda uncertain, but I scraped a pass for 2 H2, which is quite a remarkable thing right? Pass GP, pass Chinese, pass Econs, pass Math, fail Chem. Left with the much dreaded literature that we'll get back tomorrow. I haven't really pass any lit papers ): kinda sucky right? Especially when I went for cambridge and stuff like that. Don't even know why I got selected in the first place... I have this sense of inferiority now. Don't know why, I just feel shitty about myself. It's like, I'm not performing up to standards, not performing up to expectations. I know some people would deliver a punch to me when I say this because I already pass my subjects, what more can I ask for? I'm thankful that I didn't U my Econs and Math. I really thought that I would U them. But, do you undersatand what I mean and what I feel? Gahh, I don't even know what I'm feeling now. And I feel sad for my friends who didn't do well. It's not like I did well, but yea, it's sad and there's nothing to be happy about when all of us don't pass together. I want all my friends to pass this exam ): Gosh, why does such things happen in life...

express yourself {6:43 PM}

Wednesday, October 8

Don't you feel happy when you see this picture? (:

Hello (: My whole body is aching... but it's ok! I bet everyone is with me! Hehehe I just woke up heh. Seriously, I sleep alot nowdays! Later I'm going to sleep again *beams*. Maybe that is the reason why I'm in such good mood nowdays! See?! I sleep more and everyone around me benefits. What the crap, I think I damn crappy, but hehe, I'm happy! More results tomorrow, oh no. Till then, bye.

express yourself {8:15 PM}

Tuesday, October 7

Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~~~~~~ Hehe shopping! Yay, so emotionally satisfying (: Went to Parkway today with Nicole and Lyn and we ate Ban Mian! Hehe Nicole cannot eat spicy but we ordered the tom yam one for her hehehe so noob. Then shop shop shop and I think we spend money like free one... That's not the way man but hehe, once in awhile, I guess it's ok! Hehe plus I just got my pocket $money$ so yea! SO HAPPY CAN!

Back to reality! Need to do WR now, which is almost done! And yea, there's trng tmrw MORNING! Physical... Hehe how to wake up? Oh nooooo, ok ok off to do WR! And I only got back Chem and Chinese. Haven't gotten back any H2 but tmrw, we're getting back econs boohoo. My class got 6 people fail and I got a strong feeling that... ): It's just depressing thinking about results you know. So now, I shall look at the things that I shopped for just now and do my WR so I can be happy! Everyone, be happy too ok? See yaoooooo

express yourself {7:52 PM}

Monday, October 6

You know how screwed our WR is? It's as screwed as this screwed up Nemo fish. Shitty things... and I U-ed chem. How can my day get any worst? Yup, so the day only got better I guess. And tmrw, shopping at PP (: Wheeeeeeeee~ So now, my group is going to do out utmost best for our WR and hope that it'll turn out good.

express yourself {9:01 PM}

Sunday, October 5

I think I am an exceedingly narrow-minded person. No. I am exceedingly narrow-minded person. I cannot forgive people for the smallest thing that they do. So I am narrow-minded. And I don't have the ability to get over things easily. People can, but I just can't. I'll just be nonchalant about it because I really don't know what to do and I don't think that I care anymore. So that's something about myself.

Anyway!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Casting aside the shitty things, I went for Jo's bbq today! It's like... so few turnout, so sad right! But nevertheless, it was fun! Thks Jo for holding the bbq. Too bad I don't have any pictures now. If not can let you all see how cute we all look! Hehe and tmrw got trng! I think I will be damn tired cos today come back so late! But hehe, hope that tmrw will be fun! (: (: (:

Oh ya, speaking of tmrw, I'm super dreading it ): ( The school part/ Morning part ) So sad, we'll like get results, oh no. I don't want. I'm damn scared. Good luck to me and to all of you. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

express yourself {10:45 PM}

Saturday, October 4

WAYS FOR BUNNY TO DIE ):

Are you entertained?

express yourself {8:59 PM}

Sleep sleep sleep! Hehe, this guy is really desperate for sleep no? Really damn tired. And watching tv is still fun! I'll put up more entertaining pictures later k! (:

express yourself {8:30 PM}

Today was great. I enjoyed great company from both MJ people and visitors! Yup, and now, I'm as tired as ever. There's like this tired disease in me, oh noooooo hehe. Yea, so I think I'm going to sleep! Yup yup yup. It's damn unhealthy to reach home so late all the time. So next time, I'll target to reach home before 10! It's like when it hits 10, I would be konked out... Hehe so what's the point of staying out! Yea ok gdnight. Love you guys lots lots lots. Bye.

express yourself {12:04 AM}

Thursday, October 2

Omg, still damn tired! I think I'll go sleep again soon. Tomorrow Open House! Hehe, yay, there'll be people dropping by to say hi to me wheeee! So fun, but I loathe dance. I am not going to dance hehe.

This morning was fun! Went to PR-Park to jog and it rained halfway! So scary right! I do so many bad things, after that tian da lei pi ( loosely translated as thunder strike! ) Lets hope that the thunder never strikes! (:

Hehe... I'm trying very hard to do my Oral Presentation now but I have no inspiration and motivation. I think I'm like one quarter done, which is a great accomplishment uh huh! Yea, life sucks when PW kicks in. Don't you all think so? Well, I do. Goodnight!

express yourself {10:33 PM}

Feel like sleeping now. I think that's what I'm going to do. Don't you al feel that school's draining energy and life out of us such that we all so, so, so... drained. Gosh, there's the draining open house that will need alot of life tomorrow. I got to sleep to get that life that I need. See you all soon. Sleeping is good (: Sleep more! Sleep is not equals to being piggish! ( It only applies in bx's case ) Hehe, I've taken a new liking to be mean to bx. I think it's damn fun. Hehe right?! See all of you soon!

express yourself {5:46 PM}