Thursday, September 4
These days, I feel that I am absorbing more that I ever have in my entire JC life. It's like, the things that were all a blur to me in the past are all starting to make sense. Chemistry is making sense... So is math... And literature... Even Sylvia Plath, or James Joyce, Austen? Everyone loves her, she isn't a problem ( I hope)... Econs? Understand but dont know how to apply! I'm going to touch econs tomorrow!
It's funny how I like to cram up everything, and leave all of it to the very last minute. I hope that there's still time and I know that I'm not alone. Many people are like me, panic attacks springing and ya daa ya da da. Seriously, I need to get a life. Ok, I've been getting too much life. So people, hit the books! Life is studying, so get a life!
Yea... That sucks. Anyway, this entire week was filled with fun activities realating to academics. After our race on Sunday, R came to my house and we studied. On tuesday, I went over to J's to study and stayover till wednesday and then went to school for math lesson and chemistry lesson. Then we had pw and had people over at my house. So today is a day for myself. Yay. And tomorrow, will be out for S birthday and L birthday. So so so so many things to do and so so so little time.
I'm in a state of I dont know what now. I dont want to see people that I dont feel like talking to. And I have recently seen such people. How saddening. And I'm going to see such people soon. How irritating. It's just as irritating as myself. So because I hate myself, I hate everyone that is irritating because no one can be irritating but me. How unreasonable does that sound? Very. Yup, I know. It's not my fault that so many of them are so irritating and it's my fault that I'm irritaing. So got anything to say? Go away. Don't even know what I'm babblingggggg about now. Study study study. Sometimes what you say, write, type, isn't what you actually do. Why...
express yourself {10:03 PM}
