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Saturday, May 31

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Happy happy happy happy happy! Hehhh. Woke up early for a start today. Good beginning! Went to meet my dearest friends and we had superrrrrrrrr lots of fun!!! Sentosa with them on 18th hopefully(: Oh damnnn, I'm like going to go sentosa like 3times! Heh, but its ok! Sentosa is a nice place! Went for lunch together <3<3<3>

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Friday, May 30

Hello! Today is (: (: (: !!! Heh, woke up late and not in time for PW meeting, oopppps and sorry yo! Work work talk talk walk walk then took 24 home. Nice bus, brings me straight home! Hehh heh. Zomg, feel so guilty! Spent alot of $$$$$$$$$$$$$$ today, like alot, really really alot. Heh, what to do? I needed to buy what I needed to(:

TMRW TMRW TMRW! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

express yourself {10:15 PM}

Thursday, May 29

You'll be happy when you think of happy times!

express yourself {7:35 PM}

I'll be trying to study again today. Try...
Anyway, I miss my good friend ): but there's nothing I can do because I've alreday tried. Seems like I keep trying huh. Tonnes of things I miss too. What to do? Study and don't think too much.

express yourself {10:16 AM}

Wednesday, May 28

Yum yum yum! Heh, b&j strawberry cheesecake is Zomg(: Studied at simei bk today with tang! Not bad not bad, got study! Maths and Econs hehhheh... and I zapped the econs notes at some ex ex shop, zzzzz what to do!? Haha yup yup, 7hours today! Yea man! Achievement!(: Went for dinner with parents since FYX had some barbeque at some place. I was so nice ok! They wanted to go eat hao liao then I was like wait for FYX then we go eat tgt! Seeeeeeeeee I how nice... Oh ya, today I woke up damn late, mmmmmmm, it was damn nice to sleep ok! Went to supermarket with parents to get some foodstuff! I like going to supermarkets because the market is SUPER! Hehe, I think I'm damn funny. Heh. Just kidding(: Muahhhaaha, ok thats all! Till next time(:

express yourself {9:14 PM}

Tuesday, May 27

Stooopid Dan suddenly have the urge to become sporty and fit and everything and is bugging to come over for tennis! When I dont even have tennis rackets to begin with or the skill to play tennis... And then that stoopid FYX suggested playing volleyb at the tennis court instead. How smart... Hehhh, looking forward to it tho! Must ask Dawn to come along too! (:(:(: I want that day's cycling pics! Send to me k k?!!! Yea yea yea, and plan to study is not working heh. Tmrw, tmrw I'll study. Really. Okeh, why does this not sound convincing at all? Heehe, hmmmmmmmmmmmm thursday seem like a good day! Ask FYX and Dawn if they can make it. Dont care Dan because he's like toooooo free and just toooooooooo free. Haha, looking forward!(:(:(: Yayyy, people make me happy(: Yes, and I'll study tmrw! Yay! I have a balanced life of work, and play! Yipes(:

express yourself {6:46 PM}

Hello(: My cyber is woking finally! Yay(:(:(: I'm so happy. Tired, but happy(:
My theory stands. When everything is going down hill and life sucks so much that it can't suck any worst, things can only get better. And it did!

Went back to school on friday to e-learn and volley then went to meet the rest at melon's place and I watched them play! I think I know how to play arld(: Zzzzzzz yup yup! Went to eat Tom Yum Banmian!<3<3<3 the Roxy Square one! Damn niceeee hehe, I wanna eat it again. Heheh, me and my piggish ideas. Must run more to burn off all these extra fatty intake of yummy food(: Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm yum. Run run run~ Hate running, but what to do? After that some idiot scold me for being fat again! Heh, ya I'm talking about you. Hehh, jk(: Healthy lifestyle yo! Went home after the yummy meal. And that was when cyber stopped working! Sad right?! But nah, its ok, I can survive w/o it(:

Saturday was spent fighting with FYX(: Heheh, stupid idiot, force me follow when I was SUPER UNWILLING!!! Hate you hate you hate you. Read this! I hate you! Haha, but dont worry I know you hate me just as much(: And hey hey! Dont be too affected by you know who ok! Heeh, its ok one, just dont slack around too much and just be like me and you'll be fine! Haahhh, I'm jk! Dont be like me, if you be like be, you'll be everything but fine! Do your work and dont play so much ok?!!!!!!!! (:(:(: Be good! And I still hate you(: Then at night, went to granny's place for dinner. My two small cute adorable cousins are now into vball. I swear it's not my fault! Love them all<3 Heh.

Sunday was (:(:(:(:(: !!!!!!!!!!! Went to the fly away place (Airport) to study with Jo! We studied k! And the macs person attempted to chase us away heh. I intro her to my favourite place to eat cheap and yummy pasta! Went to T3 but dad was alrd there to pick me so we didn't get to walk around! Another time k! Yayyyyyyy, so happy. Safra Jumbo dinner(: I swear, they're getting more and more willing to spend $$$$$$$$$, that's a good sign(: Pepper crab! Yayyyy. You see? I'm a happy happy!

Monday happy happy happy! Hehh, pw meeting at harbourf with ChuaHM Sarah and Ed. Then SENOTSA with CLASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! We did lots of stupid fun things like shooting water with $1 water guns and sitting on the floors of vivo and eating our lunch because there was no seats left!!! Hehhhhhhhh, how cute can we get?!??! Attendance was 50%(: That rock socks. Things done at sentosa include captain's ball, jumping to the sea, attempting to rent boat to row, volleyb with some cool ah bengs, building a turtle, burrying edmund and ya da da whatnots(: Dinner at ThaiExpress. Sentosa and dinner made $30+++++++++ flew away all in one day. But it was money that was well spent hehhhhhhhhh(:(:(:

PLAN FOR TODAY : STUDY
Then again, it's just a plan.
Oh ya that stupid FYX woke up late today and was late! Haaaaaaaaaahah NOOB! But dammit, late nvm, still wake me up! Hate you...................... Blog again later if cyber works!

express yourself {10:39 AM}

Saturday, May 24

FYX said that I'm damn lame and I think that it's trueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee(: Fun day today! Looking to more of today(:(:(: Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Yesterday was just as fun too(:

express yourself {10:53 PM}

Thursday, May 22

Wo yue xiang yue jue de qi guai! Dan shi wo bu guan le. Wo zhen de bu guan le. Ni yao zen yang jiu zen yang ba. Wo fang qi le. Xian zai shi ni de cuo, bu shi wo de cuo. Cou ben lian. Suan le.

express yourself {8:43 PM}

As we grow older, we forget the times we had when we were young.
And to be happy and not to inject so much sadness into life.
Barney I miss you ): But there's no turning back.
Face life the way it is!(:

express yourself {1:43 PM}

[Del(:]

Anyway E learning sucks socks. Boooooooooooooooo to E-learning. I rather go to school man! And I rather stay in school till 7 than E-learn till 7!!! Hate it. Zzzzzzzzzzzz. Ok, gotta learn how to take things in my stride and not to be too hopeful. I'll just do my best and see what it comes out to. After all, fault lies in me. Who am I to blame? Geeeeez, I hope I dont get angry. I'm controlling my emotions? Nah, thats freaky. Hate you E-learning.

express yourself {11:23 AM}

Wednesday, May 21

Our school's soccer won VJ! Go MJ!!!(:(:(: Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and edmund did a greaaaat job! Yay edmund, our class is v v v v proud of you! Watched soccer with classmates then we went to the front for a better view. How fun. But the staduim was damn hot, really really hot, ice cream only helped for awhile... Lol(: Heheh then went for dinner at bugis with friends

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express yourself {9:29 PM}

Tuesday, May 20

Tuesday bluessssssssssssss, because Monday no school! Heheh, how cute can I get?! Besides that faggot, everything is great(:(:(: Term is finally coming to an end and time to catch up on school work, friends(:, lectures, tutorials, and yadayada! School today was fun yet weird yet good yet bad yet happy yet sad. 08A101! I got somethang for all of youuuuuuuuuuuuu tmrw(: YAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They really cheer up my day no matter how irritating/how fun/how idiotic they are! I <3<3<3 ALL OF YOUUUUUUUUU! Supporting our soccer team and Edmund Ah Seng tmrw! Hope MJ wins(:(:(: Sometimes I feel really weird and I dont know why I feel so many things at one point of time. You know it's kinda scary and it freaks me out. Its like when I'm happy, I'll be like feeling happy and everything and all natural and everything. Then suddenly, I seem to be viewing myself being happy. Same goes when I'm sad. I'll be like sad, then few seconds later, I'll be thinking why I'm sad instead of just sitting down there feeling sad. Weird huh, I dont get it.

Anyway, I'll wait. I'll just patienty wait until time runs out and I'll see if anything does happen. Dont blame me. I tried. I tried very hard. I tried too hard.

express yourself {8:07 PM}

Its always you. Get out of my life. ):

express yourself {8:06 PM}

Monday, May 19

A Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings
but shorter tempers, wider Freeways ,but narrower
viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but
less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but
less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but
less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too
little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too
tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk
too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years
to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and
back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We
conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things,
but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the
atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan
more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We
build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies
than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of
fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep
profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes
but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of
quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands,
overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet,
to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and
nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this
letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this
insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not
going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe,
because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is
the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a
cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones,
but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it
comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person
will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the
precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of
breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Public hol today, good day to catch up homework! I miss TK ): how I wish that MJ was TK where there's all the fun nice irritating bitchy TK people to be with and laugh and be stupid and be idiotic and not be stared at weirdly by others. I really miss TK. Especially the teachers there. They bother about you... They care for you... and they dont make you stand when you dont do your homework and they dont give you homework that they know you'll never be able to complete so you wouldnt have to stand. They teach you properly and they dont rush through lessons or lectures just because they feel like it. They listen to students feedback and pace their lesson for us. I want them back. I want want want. TK, I <3<3<3<3<3 YOU !!!! We'll all be going down to TK soon(: Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy(:(:(: Tk! Tksians love you!

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Sunday, May 18

(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
I havent felt so happy in such a long time.
(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

express yourself {10:07 PM}

Saturday, May 17

Hello Hello Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!! (: (: (: (: (: I feel so so so so so much better! Heheheh must be all the nice things and nice people around me that make me damn happy. It's kinda weird how my mood can change so quickly. Heh wait, I think that I'm only moody when its time for hw... Yup yup. Dinner just now was great(: Love all of you guys! Meeting them again tmrw at ECP! Yayness! Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, the dinner was damn nice heheehe. I <3 SAFRA! Yummmmmayy(: Heheeeeeeee, k k k treasure the times when you are happy!

express yourself {9:55 PM}

I <3<3<3 Volley! Heeeehe, its damn fun I tell you! Played today with the volley recre people(: Hope that our skills will improve!
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz dont know why, I feel like a total idiot now. I know I'm usually idiotic but even if I am, I wouldn't feel that I am. Slap myself... No dont worry, I'm not actually doing that but ):):): haiiii. Ok, bye bye, I think I'll post again later when I dont feel so idiotic.

express yourself {3:39 PM}

Thursday, May 15

Hello! Big news! MJC won SAJC soccer(:(:(: YAYYYYYY! And hurray to Edmund the goalie who saved many kicks(:(:(: YUP! Volley today was super fun hehe. We learnt how to spike and now my hand aches.................... Ok k k! Study for chem test now(: BB!

express yourself {8:49 PM}

Tuesday, May 13

Happy happy happy. Rachel got cap(: Xioa got vicepres(: Huix and Sarah got hse com(: Maple got secre(: Bx got hse rep(: I got cg(: Eunice got cg(: Lyn and Nicole got vicecap(: Jocelyn got vicepres(: Happy for everyoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Kk k k k go zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz damn tired. Tmrw concert(:(:(: Yayyyyyyyyyyy go girl!

express yourself {10:32 PM}

Sunday, May 11

Hey girl(: Good luck for wednesday! Today is Sunday so three more days to Wednesday(:(:(: I'm sure that you can do it and you'll be the best best bestest RP ever in the whole whole whole whole wide world!!!!!!(:(:(: Practice hard okie?!(:(:(: Can one!!!!!!!!!!!! The most your finger break only(: And pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee take care of your hand ok! Dont everytime go hit people... Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz you damn lame can! Write excuse letter so that no need to use your d-e-l-i-c-a-t-e hands! How lame!(:(:(: Okkkkkkkkkkkk la, jiayou and good luck k! I'm sure that you can do it(:(:(: I have ultimate faith in you(: GO GO GO GO GO! <3<3<3

express yourself {8:16 AM}

Spastic great friends(:(:(:

Yesterday was TJ Band concert(: It was great. Their music was good and stage band was great! So proud of JOLENE!(: (: (: She improved like super alot since the tk times! Ya!!! Jo! Your tone damn nice hehe(: Anyway anyway, the only thing that was not so great was S. Guess that it's our fault since it can't possibly be his. Well, we're the ones who left him out wad. So ya its our fault that he left halfway unnoticed. Its also our fault that he can't fit in and its our fault that he thinks that no one likes him. Yup its our fault that we're one of his few friends because we forgot that he fell out almost all of his friends. Yup, there's nothing wrong with him. It's just us. Yup yup what to do?( In the Melson accent!(: ) Heheeeeeee okeh! So the bunch of us went to Funan, some place that I've never been to before! for supper. Macs macs! Hheeehehe, lets name the people who went eat k! So fun!!! LOLLLLLLLLLLLLlll. Hilma went off before that so our tk gang got soph mich bern pon bxxxxxxxx me shix meongw zhiyi yexi. Heheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee they damn bitchy ok! Damn damn damn bitchy! I tell you right, tk people are damn freaking bitchy one k! SERIOUSLY!!! No one can match up to them........... Yesterday's supper itself they bitch like *!^+!(-#^#@*=#~&!! Hehehe but what to do? I really miss tk like super misssssssss tk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haiiiiiiiii, if only mj was tk. But its ok! Mj got our little tk gang where we can be bitchy to ourselves and not be viewed as weirdoooooooooos by others(: HHEHEEH OK! FAMILY FUN FIESTA LATER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(:

I can't help but feel a tinge of weirdness sometimes beacause of ___. ___ make things seem so weird and everything. And I'm sorry for being such an idiot but I really can't help it for being _______. What ___ want me to do? What ___ want? It's starting to ________ me.
Ok whatever, that was freaking lame but who cares anyway, I don't, so why do you? Get a life.

express yourself {7:48 AM}

Saturday, May 10

Hello world. Saturday today, I'm leaving for a whole series of arranged activities later. How packed. Going out for lunch at 1200 with dad, mum, Jean. Then going to school for chem consultation at 1330 with Nicole and Sarah. Then going to city hall at 1700 to meet Hilma, Shawn, Yexi, Zhiyi and maybe bxxxxxxxxx. TJ Band concert at 1900. Maybe going out after that. And reach home at hopefully 2300?! Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz! Tmrw also another packed day! Afternoon 1300-1700 family fun fiesta. Tennis at savannah till night! When to study?! When when when???????????????? Dammit, balance balance balance! Ok, back to chem now.

express yourself {10:57 AM}

Wednesday, May 7

School's been ok, not as bad as last week. Last week was really horrible. I'm going to catch some sleep now and wake later to study for tomorrow's maths test.

express yourself {6:36 PM}

Things I don't want to do
1) Expect
2) Let myself down
3) Let them down
4) Hate people
5) Care
Things I want to do
1)
2)
3)
4)
5)

We'll see what I want.

express yourself {6:28 PM}

Monday, May 5

Mood today's great(: Yea baby yea! I know why, its beacuse heheeeeeeeeeeeeeehee(: Zzzzz haha. Lots of things to look forward to and lots of things not to look forward to. Monday is the first day of school. 4 more days! Go Joan! You can do it! You can can can can can! Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa(: Say no to moodiness! Haha no la actually cannot control one! How you want to control pms?(: Heheheheheh. Life is so bloody weird. But who cares? Not me. I dont give a fuakkkkkkk! Bye bye, I'll go do hw now!

express yourself {9:50 PM}

Sunday, May 4

I'm super happy today(: Must be because I spent the whole week being sad. I seriously think that it's school. Bloody school.............. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz! Dammit, school's starting like tmrw. Hope that I'll not be all moody and everything! Yup yup yup, hehe, smile more people, smile!(: I rock rock rock!(:

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Saturday, May 3

BX says:
lol
BX says:
i feel like taking arts too
BX says:
AHAHHA
Joan(: says:
why
BX says:
jus random though
BX says:
ahahha
Joan(: says:
lol
BX says:
cos ilook at the trylimpic
BX says:
A101 sounds nice
Joan(: says:
HAA WHY!
BX says:
dno
Joan(: says:
LOL
BX says:
sounds nice
BX says:
A101
BX says:
so ncie can
Joan(: says:
HAHA I KNOW(:
BX says:
hhhahaha

<3 08A101(:

express yourself {9:49 PM}

(: YAY! IM SUPER HAPPY! ITS DAMN NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (: (: (: I love pancakes and my cravings is uncraved now(: I make for you all one day k!

express yourself {4:32 PM}

Saturday today and the day is great(: Must be because there's no school today! I seriously think that school makes me damn sad and moody. Actualy it's not school, it's more like MJ, but who know? It'll prolly be the same if I went to TJ or TPJ, I think it's just the JC cirricular. Woke up today not in time for volley! They went to schol to play but I was too tired. So sad, but it's ok! Thursday got training(: Heeeeeeeehe, I think that volley recre people are fun and nice and loving people! Yea man! Haha, never regret joining although getting into the 1st team would be a superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr difficult thing! Hehe, but what to do? I feel happy. Heeeeeheee. Life without school sure does rock. It rock more than pebble(: Haha, what the... I'm being lame but what to do? I like it(:

I'm going to make pancakes now. The yummy kind with maple syrup and butter.(:

express yourself {3:58 PM}

Friday, May 2

How I wish,
That life can regain normality,
Where it wouldn't be such a frenzy.
How I wish.
How I wish,
That time could turn,
And return to the days,
Where everyone was so innocnet,
So happy,
So carefree,
Where everyone had no worries,
No sadness.
How I wish.
I wish, I wish, I wish.

Wishes don't come true, they are not supposed to come true anyway. Would wishes be called wishes them? Not like I want them or need them to come true. Life does suck but there's always a tinge of positiveness in life no matter what. It's just an awful phase that we have to learn to walk past. Afterall, without these phases, how would life be good if there is no bad? So many things, so little time. Need to learn how to focus and prioritise. Balance is essential for survival. I have no balance.
Things are going okay so far. Just can't be bothered sometimes with people and of course, people can't be bothered with me, but do I care? No. Not like they would care too. So you see, the feeling is mutual. Just irritated and dissapointed sometimes here and there by anyone. Not that I can help it. Not like they can help it. Just have to let things go the way they do. Life moves on no matter what. Might as well have a more positive approach towards it. Hope that life will suck less soon.

express yourself {8:11 PM}

Thursday, May 1

): What do you want?

express yourself {10:50 AM}