Thursday, March 20
Just finished telling my loserish expedition to my friend! Gosh, how loserish. I still havent gotten over it yet. Boooooooooooooo! Anyhow, whatever. I dont care.
Anyway, after the 31th, on the 1st, I'm not going to freaking care anymore. I'm only going to try until 31th, I swear, I freaking swear. But I'll probably break my promise to myself again. That's what I've been telling myself for the past idk how long and now, I'm still trying. See what a freaking loser I am. Anyway, if you're thinking you know what I'm talking about, you probably dont. Because I tell you now, its not what you're thinking about. I know what you're thinking! Yea, so I'll just try and give my f-ing best till the 31th. I have a feeling that my efforts won't go to waste. I can somewhat feel it. Yea.
Anyway anyway, ran again today and I was super pleased with myself because I just love myself too much. Yea right, whatever~! It's the first time that I freaking did a timimg below 13min for 2.4!!!!!!!!! Yea baby yea yea yea. Never before(: And I did my 13rounds in 29min, quite cool like cool shit no? Randomness- feel like skating suddenly, not pro skating but just feel like going down east coast alone and skate in my orange skates and feel the wind and see the sand and bask in the sweltering sun and smell the sea and be free. I absolutely love that feeling. You know? I get that same free feeling when I'm running too just that when I skate, I sweat 9113763190times lesser that when I run. So yea, plus skating is faster that running. But running makes you feel good. If you're those who need to feel good cos you feel bad, then run. Seriously, trust me, run. It's healthy and it makes you feel damn less sad. It makes you numb and stronger. Emo shit la. Whoever cares anyway. Not me.
Oh and one more thing. Cg interim comm today, I runned and my absolutely great friends supported me, so guys, ilu<3! Cool eh no? But then again, it doesn't mean anything since it's interim but rest assure peopleeeeeeeeeeeeeee, I'll be good. At least I'll try and do my best. You know I love you and I know you love me! Yea ma(:
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm you know what? I think my period's coming. I'm getting mood swings. Booooooooo to that. And btw, that wasn't a necessary information but I just felt like saying it anyway. Hormonal imbalance I think. I want to know more about psych. I'll do more research but meanwhile, I shall have to catch up on my general knowldege by reading Times and catch up on my literature by reading more books. Gonna read Jane Eyre Charlotte Bronte and Great Expextations Charles Dickens by sunday. Yup. So see ya and I better freaking study on saturday cos I'll go out tomorrow and prolly sunday to see band if I study on saturday! Yeaaaaaaaaaaaa so good bye people
express yourself {9:30 PM}
