Saturday, September 1
Went to watch THAT yesterday. (: It was damn cute........ Oh yea just asking, are the dots (...) very irritating? (x HEEHeee. Studying sucks and I hate studying. Thinking sucks and I hate thinking. If, if this world doesn't think, then nothing would happen. No problems, nothing. So, is that good or bad? I leave it to you to decide because I dont know. Spent my day at the clubhouse from ten in the morning after being Pang-sehed by my two friends. Haha, too bad. Anyhow, I dont think I'll be studying anymore today. I really really care about some people and I really really dont give a damn about others. Maybe its just the people? Like when E told me he/she felt damn emo yesterday i felt genuinely concern, and wanted to help. But when O told me about the something affecting him/her the first thought that came to me was wtf, do I freaking care? Yea, big fat bitch, I know. But seriously, I told O before, advised O before and did whatever and whatever until I got sick and tired of it. I felt like saying, I really really did felt like saying 'serve you right'. Whine and whine and whine.... Thats all you know. Okay, now, I'm ready to face it and I know the problem. You are too irritating for me to stand and even if you know that you are irritating, apologised for being irritating, you still continue to be irritating. You do what you dont like other people to do on you and when people do something you dont like to you, you start whining and whining and whining like a tiny child. And guess what? I couldn't stand all those whining and hence, I distanced myself away. Feeling really bad for what I did, I felt sad? Yes, sad. Because I didn't want to do it but I knew I should because if I dont, I'll shout into your face one day for you to fuck back into your turtle shell. Because if I wasn't close to you, I wouldn't have to bother about you, hear your constant whining, hear what trival and minute things others has done to you, how others were irritating you when they did nothing. But I do not mind being your friend. I just do not want to be close to you. I know what I'm saying is hurtful but this is what I feel. Since I'm not that close to you, would you mind not asking me inane questions like whether I m*** you? Its really really really really really gross. Okay, its meant as a joke of some sort but when I say no, I really do mean it and its really hard for me to answer it because I must appear that I joked to say no when I actually mean no. Anyway, everyone has their flaws and I'm sure I have more flaws than O. Its just that I can't stand O. So, if you can't stand me, I really dont care because I cant be bothered. Ahhhhhhhhhh..... I feel so much better after realising what I actually feel. I will be backLove Jfry<3
express yourself {5:40 PM}
