Monday, September 3
Anyway,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, this is my 123 post. A stupid number but significant? It signifies the first time I uhhhh could count? And coincidentally, its my door number. Yup. Ha-ha. Anyway again, I found some pictures from last year and of speech day. Happy times maybe. I realised something that was so oblivious and fully understand the rationale to why E is sad. I would be too I guess, just that it wouldn't hit me so bad. I think that the most important thing is to have a positive view towards things and happenings and move on with our life. Yes, I was struck with the realisation.
Yet another thing that make me frown. I try not to think of it and make it seem that it doesn't exist, waiting for things to happen and to change. But, it has all been self-denial. Sometimes, people come out with all kinds of stupid excuses which are just so stupid that nothing else can be placed against the stupidity of the excuse. Just mere effort on one part. Fuck it. Stop being such a fucking pampered fucking idiot and thinking that the entire world belongs to you and revolves around you. Expecting things from others but never ever ever willing to give. I do not deny that there are many good traits regarding characteristic, but besides that, it boils down to un-thoughtfulness. You know what people feel but you just cannot bring yourself to do something that is desired. Sometimes, the world isn't all about you, you know. And even you say it is, it isn't. I hope, I wish, that this is just momentary and yea. You know it yourself whatever your problems are and whatever you should feel. It all boils down to what you are willing to do. I think, my opinion, if this persists, there won't be anyone there left..........
See, I told you I shouldn't have started thinking. Its like Charlie Gordon from the literature bool. Its better to live in a fool's paradise and in my case, self denial. By talking to you, I slipped out of my self denial state although I know that I shouldn't have denied myself.
Low and behold, lets hope that all these thinking would make me comprehend the characters of Shakesphere and ASOB. And lets hope I'll see the reason to why I need to study. Right now, I am only studying for the sake of studying. Nothing more..................
Btw, I was talking about different people above, just in case
Yours sincerely, J.fry <3
express yourself {10:58 PM}
