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Saturday, September 29

HEY!!! I feel super like super uber happy now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHA, dont know why! Maybe because I studied today and I feel damn contented and and and I dont know!!! Hahahahahahaha. Maybe I'll relax a little tomorrow. Yea (: uhh huh huh. AHahahahaha. Damn, Im just happy now. Like just pure happy. No reason. Oh ya, maybe because.......... I got over prelims!!!!! (: (: (: YUP YUP YUP. Okay,,,,,,,,,, time to go zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz now! Bye bye!

LOVE ME!!!!!!!!!

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Wednesday, September 26

Hey.............................. Im back.

Results? One A, Five B, One C. Shit, like really shit. Where the hell am I going to go with this shitty score. I swear I'm gonna work super hard from now to O's. Yup. Actually I've kinda gotten over it already and moving on with life.

Ummmm, I feel like crap now. Not entirely because of results, that one feel crap but not so crap anymore. Stupiddddddddddddddddd. Omg. You know I'm damn sad or disappointed or or or I dont event know what I'm feeling. And I cant believe that I told someone that I'm not very close to what I feel? Its like you know I always feel this way because of you? Like I'm not good enough or like I owe you something or like you really dont like me but you dont say it? It'll be like better like alot alot alot alot better if you tell me you know? Its damn irritating and its damn saddening you know? Shit la. Its always like that. And whatever, I dont want to say anymore. You wouldnt know anyway. Whatever, whatever and whatever.

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Wednesday, September 19

Haha, Im back. Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, went out today ! ! ! BX and WT came to my house first and we watched s e c r e t hahahahahahahaha. Its quite a nice show tho and yup spent almost the whole day watching tv........ Oh yea but in the afternoon we went to suntec to walk walk. Met two friends there (: Good friends. Hahahahahahaha damn happy now. Like superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr happy (: (: (: Watching tv now and wasting my life away. Practical tomorrow so sleep after this movie!! Yay. Hope prelims results will not be so dissapointing, yea, studied harder than i ever did. I think uhhhhhhhhhhhh, haha nevermind. After O's then think, dont get distracted..................... Hahahahahahahah

K, BYE BYE

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Tuesday, September 18

HEYYYYYYY ! ! ! !

Guess whose's back with more fun and action? (: (: (: Yup, its me. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, prelims are totally over!!! Yea man, but guess what? There's the freaking O's............ Gosh. So here's the plan. Play hard today like now, tomorrow, thursday, friday, and *poof* back to reality again and its the study manic time. I prefer to be spectacled during examination period because wearing spectacles make me feel smart and look smart. (: Hahahahahahaha, wishful thinking on my part I guess. Feel more like studying with specs cos there's the nerdy feel ahahahahaha. Tell you, I'm going bonkers soon. Ahh, but I'll find someone to talk to. Anyway prelims for the rest ends tomorrow so more people to talk to!! hahahaha. Not like any one of you are allowed to reject my calls or anything. Nah, I'm just kidding. And can you tell me if there's something that I should know but I dont? I'm like super curious cos i feel something but I daren't say it cos if it's wrong it'll be s u p e r embarassing. Yea. So tell me if you know anything..... Hahahahaha. Bitch feel..................

Maybe we'll go cycling tomorrow. Maybe we'll watch secret tomorrow. Maybe we'll play volleyball tomorrow. Maybe we'll just slack tomorrow. Maybe we'll not even meet up tomorrow. Maybe................. Hahahahaha, want to know the answer? I'll blog tomorrow, I hope (:

Love me and I love my almost new *shine* (:

express yourself {10:03 PM}

Thursday, September 6

ZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......... Another birthday, -.- ! ! !

J-E-A-N,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Its eleven plus now and its close enough to september 7. Just like a few more minutes. Anyway, you just pissed me off, but nevertheless, thanks for being such a great sister ( in terms of loser-ness.. JK! ) and always doing all sorts of stupid mundane things for me. Although you really suck most of the time, there are sometimes where you are really really really nice. Audhhhhhhh...... Don't worry, I know I suck more than you do, as what you say! Grrrrrrrrrrrr. Hope you like your lime-green white addidas bag which made me broke. Nah, Im not broke, just saying that to make you feel guilty. (: And there's cheese cake in the fridge, although I didn't buy it specially for you. Oppssssss. You can have a slice of it and I can eat the rest OR! smash it into your face! ! ! ! (: (: (: Hmmmm, anything esle? Nah, just one more sentence for you. Happy Birthday and hope you'll be happy forever and yupppp, that's the most important thing ever.

LOVE FRY ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

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HEY ! ! ! ! Totally went to school today! Met up with kj in the morning to play the long awaited b-ball and geraldine and some others came later. Oh hey geraldine! Dont be to sad and pressured by everything k? Im sure that to everything there's a reason and perhaps you just can't see the reason now. Hope today was ok! Your doing a good job! JIA-YOU!!! (: (: Love <3

Anyway, studied chemistry and did some Emaths questions from nine till like one two plus then we started getting distracted and went to play bball, again... Bunch of losers ! ! ! Haha, birds of the same feather flock together. Then,,,,,,, guess where we went? Lol! We went to suntec sakae and gave weiting her birthday treat. Oh and it was so freaking full! -.- Gosh. We resorted to stuffing the food into our mouths, then hurriedly paying the bill, rushing out of sakae, and spitting out the food. Boy were we gorged! ! ! Bet that's the stupidest, noobiest thing ever. Lol. Tried looking for her birthday present but to no avail. Nothing to her liking! Oh yea, hs and rachel couldn't make it but oh wells... So it was me, bx and kl, and of course, Lwt!! Hahaa. Chee yang came to join us like just before we left?!! Hahahaa, he's really really nice cos he bought a waffle ice cream for wt as she needed the candles. So he ate the ice cream and wt got her candles! Lol. Rushed like mad to the mrt station. Bx and I felt like we were walking at 30928612505098 km/h ! ! ! Goshhhhh. Yup thats today, so see ya again later!

Love FRY! HAHHAHAhHAHAHA (:

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Wednesday, September 5

DEDICATED TO MISS L:

HEY!! Im going to school tomorrow for the first time in the holidays for that sake of *DRUM ROLLS* Lai-Weiting!!!!!!!!!!!! Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..................... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I totally drew this cake myself ! ! ! ! WEITING, are you touched???? (: Anyway, thats four years of friendship. Love yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa <3

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Monday, September 3

Anyway,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, this is my 123 post. A stupid number but significant? It signifies the first time I uhhhh could count? And coincidentally, its my door number. Yup. Ha-ha. Anyway again, I found some pictures from last year and of speech day. Happy times maybe. I realised something that was so oblivious and fully understand the rationale to why E is sad. I would be too I guess, just that it wouldn't hit me so bad. I think that the most important thing is to have a positive view towards things and happenings and move on with our life. Yes, I was struck with the realisation.

Yet another thing that make me frown. I try not to think of it and make it seem that it doesn't exist, waiting for things to happen and to change. But, it has all been self-denial. Sometimes, people come out with all kinds of stupid excuses which are just so stupid that nothing else can be placed against the stupidity of the excuse. Just mere effort on one part. Fuck it. Stop being such a fucking pampered fucking idiot and thinking that the entire world belongs to you and revolves around you. Expecting things from others but never ever ever willing to give. I do not deny that there are many good traits regarding characteristic, but besides that, it boils down to un-thoughtfulness. You know what people feel but you just cannot bring yourself to do something that is desired. Sometimes, the world isn't all about you, you know. And even you say it is, it isn't. I hope, I wish, that this is just momentary and yea. You know it yourself whatever your problems are and whatever you should feel. It all boils down to what you are willing to do. I think, my opinion, if this persists, there won't be anyone there left..........

See, I told you I shouldn't have started thinking. Its like Charlie Gordon from the literature bool. Its better to live in a fool's paradise and in my case, self denial. By talking to you, I slipped out of my self denial state although I know that I shouldn't have denied myself.

Low and behold, lets hope that all these thinking would make me comprehend the characters of Shakesphere and ASOB. And lets hope I'll see the reason to why I need to study. Right now, I am only studying for the sake of studying. Nothing more..................

Btw, I was talking about different people above, just in case

Yours sincerely, J.fry <3

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Sunday, September 2

I feel so shitty now. Don't know why. Oh, wait, I do know why. I feel EXTREMELY unaccomplish......................... See?! Think too much la. Think and think and think. Shit man. I knew I shouldn't have started thinking. Its like one you start thinking, it very hard to stop. Arghhhhh, S . T . U . P . I . D !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im desperate for answers to everything. Why dont everything have and answer to it? WHY WHY WHY?! Seriously, why? I wish for someone to come up to me and to tell me everything I want to know and answer all my questions. And, I want my questions answered!!!!!! Why dont stupid questions have answers to it and why does simple questions not have a definite answer to it? Why why why why why why why why why why why why why why. Gosh, Im now stuck in this why-ness.

I NEED TO SHUT MY BRAIN

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Saturday, September 1

Went to watch THAT yesterday. (: It was damn cute........ Oh yea just asking, are the dots (...) very irritating? (x HEEHeee. Studying sucks and I hate studying. Thinking sucks and I hate thinking. If, if this world doesn't think, then nothing would happen. No problems, nothing. So, is that good or bad? I leave it to you to decide because I dont know. Spent my day at the clubhouse from ten in the morning after being Pang-sehed by my two friends. Haha, too bad. Anyhow, I dont think I'll be studying anymore today.
I really really care about some people and I really really dont give a damn about others. Maybe its just the people? Like when E told me he/she felt damn emo yesterday i felt genuinely concern, and wanted to help. But when O told me about the something affecting him/her the first thought that came to me was wtf, do I freaking care? Yea, big fat bitch, I know. But seriously, I told O before, advised O before and did whatever and whatever until I got sick and tired of it. I felt like saying, I really really did felt like saying 'serve you right'. Whine and whine and whine.... Thats all you know. Okay, now, I'm ready to face it and I know the problem. You are too irritating for me to stand and even if you know that you are irritating, apologised for being irritating, you still continue to be irritating. You do what you dont like other people to do on you and when people do something you dont like to you, you start whining and whining and whining like a tiny child. And guess what? I couldn't stand all those whining and hence, I distanced myself away. Feeling really bad for what I did, I felt sad? Yes, sad. Because I didn't want to do it but I knew I should because if I dont, I'll shout into your face one day for you to fuck back into your turtle shell. Because if I wasn't close to you, I wouldn't have to bother about you, hear your constant whining, hear what trival and minute things others has done to you, how others were irritating you when they did nothing. But I do not mind being your friend. I just do not want to be close to you. I know what I'm saying is hurtful but this is what I feel. Since I'm not that close to you, would you mind not asking me inane questions like whether I m*** you? Its really really really really really gross. Okay, its meant as a joke of some sort but when I say no, I really do mean it and its really hard for me to answer it because I must appear that I joked to say no when I actually mean no. Anyway, everyone has their flaws and I'm sure I have more flaws than O. Its just that I can't stand O. So, if you can't stand me, I really dont care because I cant be bothered. Ahhhhhhhhhh..... I feel so much better after realising what I actually feel.
I will be back
Love Jfry<3

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