Friday, April 27
attempted to study today. it worked out a little. we studied at marine parade library before i smartly suggested to go to united square to hang out, and in the end, we did go to united square. haha.
you know sometimes when you are alone? you start thinking of things. sometimes, you think of the most ridiculous things on earth and no one would ever imagine what you were thinking of, then at other times, you think of other things that are insignificant and by thinking of it, it makes you happy or sad. if you think of the sad things, you will inevitably become sadder and of course, if you think about the happy things, you would become happier. thats what i realised. then on some other times, you think about issues, that have no right or wrong, that changes all the time, that has no one answer. and then you just think and think and think but it just never seem to make complete sense to you. but nothing have to make sense nowdays. actually, nothing do make sense nowdays. one of the things that i often think about are friends. its kind of funny like how you came to know your friends. you may have hated him/her in secondary one or two or three but now, you guys became good friends. then there is what you call fate. you become friends because you are in the same class and because of coincidence or perhaps something else, you become friends. friends play a very big part of or in our lives. but mostly, they will leave us due to the circumstances. like after we graduate, will the friends now still be as close as before? at least my secondary one two classmates, the closer ones i mean, are still close now. its kind of sad that just because we dont attend the classes or go for the same activity together had resulted in people being less close to one another. take band for example. just a few days/weeks without band, i haven't spoke to three quarters of the people i would usally speak to or utter a hi and same to the rest. its also kind of weird that it doesnt really matter if i had spent an hour or so everyday in the past talking to whoever because we are not as close as before. not that i mind or anything but friendship needs both parties to contribute, i think. there is so much to one can do. so meanwhile, when my thoughts are still not sought out yet, i shall treaure my friends even more than ever and ever. treasure your friends, they dont come by easily.
express yourself {10:47 PM}
