Saturday, February 17
bloody hell. blogger forced me into upgrading or something. but since im free, which explains why im here in the first place. lets crap. my v3 is spoit, hell. and they seem to be refusing to get me a new one. lame and lameness la. i dont really mind. lol. so now, im stuck with another hellomoto phone which i dont like as much as i like-d my v3. dont know why but im not that excited or not waiting in eager anticipation for chinese new year to arrive. money? nah, what i'll be getting is like only a substential amout, no big deal. even if its alot of money, i'll just spend it away and the next day, there'll not be any difference. relatives? i see my closer cousins almost every forthnight and seeing them again does not really matter, or does it. its not that i dont cherish ties or bonds or whatever but there is just so much one can do and its not like i can actually associate with them. those distance relative, guess what happens when we go visit. smiles on each other's faces. 'oh!! happy new year. how are you.' throw in a few phrases of auspicious words. then they would say, havent seen you in such a long time and blah. duh! i dont even know your name or your surname or i dont even recogise your face if i were to see you again. then, the parents will strike up lame conversations with each other and the other party, its always the other party, would be unfriendly or just smile lightly as they munched away on whatever food thats on the table. those closer distance relative. dont knows about other people but for me, they are all older people from one or two generation above and really, it sucks. they'll start giving you huggs and kisses and pinch your cheek. thats the fucking worst part. if a friend were to pinch my cheek, i wouldnt mind that much. they're my friends duh. and most importantly, i get to pinch their cheeks back. but imagine, this old lady pinching my cheek and if i were to treat her as my friend, it'll go like this 'bitch!! omg, how dare you pinch my cheeks!!' and i'll start pinching her back. would that or this happen to the frail old lady? NO NO and NO. then this weird thing start to happen. the upper generation people would crowd around and start talking about weird stuff or gossiping about some realtive or something thats lame. its not that us, children, do not try to fit in or anything but seriously, we'll get bored in 2 seconds (im being nice) and excuse ourselves to go with our cousins, who are too, bored. so much so that you see them playing the computer. so no life right?! cny playing computer, loser to the max. erm, that includes me if you havent realise. so now, i think you should know why cny, is not that enjoyable or looking forward to, for me. but even so, this whole cny thing is somewhat or somehow a tradition that should be forgotten regardless of whatever the case it. im just being juvelile about the case, i guess. but it doesnt really matter. i'll get to mug. whether it really happens is another thing.
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im so so so looking forward to wednesday. cause there's SCH REHERSAL. its so exciting like godspeed! ahhhh. so regretted not bringing home the sax. but the bad thing is that we'll be missing lessons. actually, i dont really mind missing lessons but its the making up of lessons that suck like hell. firstly, we have band, so, we're always busy. secondly, the teachers, are too busy, all upper sec teachers are busy anyway. and thirdly, there's no thirdly. im sick of going home alone, i mean the bedok to home part. at least from school to bedok there's a bunch of people crapping around but after that, its boredom all the way. i cant seem to sleep or anything on the bus alone. at least if dad fetch me, i can still talk to him about some lame stuff and be entertained. gosh, i finally understand the essential loneliness of man. btw, its back to sense of belonging!! x)x)x) YIPEEEEEEEEE!
express yourself {4:34 PM}
