{EXPRESSED}

Saturday, December 30

oh guess what? im back and have lots of hw left tho most pple won't do it anyway. but its the wow, o'levels right? so i'll consider more. x)x)x) hilma's just sent me physics stuff. its kinda hard trying to be a nerdy nerd. haa. anyway, nz was fun and aus was plain boring. and the hotel internet connection has blocked me of my blog claiming that it contain information that would be a bad influence or somewhat on children. uh huh. nz's motels were great. lol. better than hotels i think. its damn cosy. besides sheeps, there were mountains and that was basically nz, plus all the fun tourism activities. so unlike aus, boring, haa. just went to visit some attractions and the only nice thing was sydney opera house. yea. so now, i'll try convince myself that no one will do hw. i'm being paranoid. and, school's starting!! is that a good thing?

express yourself {10:20 PM}

Monday, December 11

im going to sleep in no time. thats a good thing since im always too sleepy or so sleepy. anw, talking to hweeeeeee, now in japan in her so nice hotel that has a computer. gosh, i hope nz has comp. LOL. oh, today was a band day. tmrw isn't! cool duh! x)x)x) msg was shutted today and i hope she will be shutted forever and ever and ever and her dirty mouth will never open to speak any horrendousssss words ever ever again. so irritating, tho she never do anythiny thing to me, im like that type of extra extra, kan bu guo those bully other people thype of people. so you get why i detest her, lol. its none of my business actually. got a dressing down down or whatever you call that today from c-h-i-a. in a way, he's right. actually, he's only right in his way in a right way. der, we don't watch the conductor. because? firstly, there really isn't a need to since most of them are going at OUR tempo which brings out the second point, which is that they happen to lack the ability to do whatever their doing now, meaning that whatever their doing is most of the time more often then not, wrong. so, if their wrong, why bother watching when we will do a better job not watching. right? so if you want to blame anyone, blame it on yourself first berfore blaming others. not saying your wrong or anything, just unfair to make these accusations when you only popped in like one out a longlong time. yea. but talking about that, we are wrong la, duh. its just basic concert ettique(sp?) that is so basic and nooby. so, duh, its our fault. and oh, i dont think i made any sense since i started typing this post so sleepy. GOODNIGHT! <3

express yourself {11:09 PM}

Sunday, December 10

oh stchupid, damn tired after a long day of long day. ok, that did not make sense. bah, im too tired to make any sense now. the christmas high tea thingy was ok but a little boring tho. sitting with some random people and well, helping them a little there and there if i can. was too freaked to carry those handicapped around for fear of pushing them off their wheelchair and making them even more handicapped. so i just shut up and sat at my seat when they asked for volunteers to do the pushing. well, it was much better than volunteering i guess. ohohh, after the thing i helped an old woman down to the lobby x)x)x) how nice of me. HAHA. so after the whole event i had to chose to go with the batchies of with bx and lpon. with the incessent nagging of my parents of being back late and not helping out, i went with bx x), lol. we walked aimlessly for awhile and they both decided to be extremely nice to send me to the mrt station. and helium work wonders. 1. it make balloon float (the noble gas thing HAHA) 2. it make your voice squeeeky, didn't really hear the squeak but audhh, damn sad. lol. oh, so thankfully didn't go with the batch. heard they stayed till late. would have been screwed. there's band tmrw again, as usual and concert's in 5 days!!! omGGGGGGGGG

express yourself {10:29 PM}

Saturday, December 9

been down with the old house this couple of days with painting! x)x)x) haha, i'm a painter. and in case you still haven't realise, life have still been revolving around band band and band. ok, i gotta put this up
TANJONG KATONG BAND
IN CONCERT
15.12.2006
CHEAPLY SOLD AT TEN DOLLARS
SINGAPORE CONFERENCE HALL
FREE SEATING (seated by 1930)
oh well, its like after all the sec 3/4's last concert. gosh, time damn fly man. the last time was like two years ago, when we were all nooby sec ones noobs who yea, were fooling around and being, young. yea, two years passed so fast and we're now sec 3/4. well, things change as time pass, duh, haha. so, i guess we're not that noobish now. and i am THANKFULL that our last concert is at sinfapore conference hall. x)x)x) *smiles widely* and it cost ten bucks, not the usual like last year's five bucks concert at the school's audi. but we'll be having a whole lot bunch of conductors of which i don't approve of one, which is really really. ok, lets count! one, two, phreeee! oh, i'm not being mean but i'm just being very, i dont know the word but is like, i'm being realistic, truthful. if the unknown didn't conduct we'll have a better impression of him. at least, best something award coupled with the best you know what, is a much better potrayal than a hopeless conductor who know nuts bout what he's doing. oh hell, why do i even bother.

and did i mention, i am COMPASSIONATE man. i'm going to some christmast function to help the elderly move here and there and make sure they don't accidentally. and trust me, i'm compassionate. i already have enough CIP, i think, so im going just on mere compassion. haha, cut that crap. whatever la, nowdays people also dont even have any compassion at all lor, and even if they have, their compassion would have been like cheated too many times for them to be compassionate or even to empathise with the less fortunate. see la, the nkf thingy, make everyone feel damn cheated. then those fake beggars on the road pretending to be poor or handicapped when they can walk run jump but refuse do make do with a proper living and chose to extort compassion from these once so heartful people. see see see?!! those silly adults, blaming us, mere students, for not having enough compassion for less fortunate. they didn't even pause for a while to use their supposedly frigging smart brains to think of the reason for US not to have enough of what they call compassion. isn't it them? adults? that use unscruplous(sp?) means to extort our compassion and and empathytyness. and after that, them, adults, blame us, the younger and vulnerable generation for not having compassion, wtf. hate it hate it, totally hate it. and did you happen to realise? those stupid reports of complains of stupid bus rides or train rides. talking about lame things like not giving up seats for the elderly. oh hell. do you adults, even give up your place? and why do you complain about students? are there not many other frigging adults all around the bus sitting? why must you stupid things pick on students man. bitches and bitch. WE ARE COMPASSIONATE PEOPLE, but it was not you who nurtured us, its in us. x)x)x)

express yourself {10:36 PM}

Tuesday, December 5

band today, as usual. omg, omg, learnt a small part of godspeed and thanks to LINDA, managed to play the small part a bit better. x)x)x). ohhohoh, guess what? there's no band tmrw. amazingly amazing. hope can go blade tmrw man, so looking forward to trying out the gorgeous blade. haha.

ON ROLE OF AUTHORITY FIGURES
the role of authority figures are to set an example and for some others to follow. and if you dont do it, never expect others to cos you cant do it yourself. impartial too. hahahaa, whatever man. the worst thing is, imagine, you are an authority figure and your suppose to go for work from 9-6 daily. you only turn up for the 1-6 part of work and during the 1-6 part, you start scolding everyone for the things they've done wrong and have yet to realise that your the wrongest thing that's there. what the hell were you doing from the whole 9-12 man? sleeping? sesoning your meat with what have you? or keeping your meseals disease that is SO contagious to yourself? (the meseals is seld-proclaimed) oh, then since its so contagious, why bother to come for work at all. haa, take a look at the REAL WORKING WORLD . crap man.

anyway, heard some news of some random guy plunging into the mrt tracks at yishun. probably died of train crash. its like wtf? there was already an incident just a few days back uh huh? and like many many more before. if i were to commit suicide, yes, i would probably do it there uhh. they know that the sucidal thingy at tracks are on the increasing trend. its not like they accidentally dropped into the tracks or something but they what jumped into it. the causes and outcomes? public transport affected. reliability of the organisation tarnished for providing such inefficient transport systems and blah blah. it goes on and on. and for the person who dies in the track, congrats, you delayed and affected thousands of commuters just for yourself to die and firstly, i dont think anyone should have the right to end their own life, yea, the nature nature thingy and secondly, just go jump off some random building instead and you would not need to create such a hooha in the newspapers and affects so many people. think about it, what if its this nobbie's first day at work and because you had to die at such a strategic location, the noob gets affected by the delay and reach work late. see? the employer would have a bad impression on the noobie all thanks to you and your ending life, you affected someone's bright future. that someone might very well be the future ceo of some big company if he was on time the first day of work. what about students taking exams? you think the teachers give a f*** about why the student is late? a straight zero. i mean what a stupid excuse, someone fell into the track. yea, its so stupid someone done it. see see, by doing this, the dying incident have a chain effect and affects things and people. what i suggest? the gov to put a fine on those who so cleverly decide that they should announce their death to the whole population of the red dot. ever thought of how much losses would the transportation company would incur just for this random thing to die at his transportation line? well, i guess this happens too much in japan too. went there last year and the tour guide told us that if you commited suicide at the transporation, you or rather your poor burdened family would have to pay for the transportation company's losses as well as compensate their well established name in the industry. money comes in here, and since you need to pay such a huge price for dying instead of the one two dollars of the fare to die, you would think twice before jumping into the tracks. i know its kind of stupid for me to talk about such a thing but i seriously cant stand these people who think of themselves.

SLACKING AWAY

express yourself {9:50 PM}

So today was band again, as usual as ever. Went with the ever so loving section to parkway for lunch. Damn tired la, woke up at ten forty-five and rush to parkway and reached there before twelve. Coolness. Anyway, DADA decided to keep to her promise and treat sax ice-cream (one of the nicest thing she’s ever done) and I was actually quite baffled that she kept her word, although not hinting that at the same time she doesn’t usually does it x)x)x) And guess what? We were late, well, probably cos we were erm, too lazy to run la. Pigs right. Oh, damn sian, there’s going to be band for two weeks and yay, poof! And I’ll be off for the next two. Damn! I really need to study man. Gosh. And lips are starting to hurt again. Heard from hweesan that her best friend’s lips were so serious that she had to see a doctor. Damn scary. Stay strong peeps, haha. Oh, I kinda feel sad for her. I don’t know. I used to dislike her alot, well, I used to like her alot too, not the lesbian like. You know what I’m talking about la. But after whatever, yea, that was where it came in. But recently she trusted me again, I guess, and told me what happened. That was when I felt bad. Yes, what you called damn bad. And I started feeling like I was such a bitch. A fucking bitch. Well, I wasn’t the only bitch. There’s one there now, being not at all empathetic at all. I mean being a bitch for a while is ok, but being a bitch for too long will really turn you into a f-ing mean bitch. Which what the empathy lacking thing is turning into now, I guess. I don’t know, what do I know anyway. Don’t be so bad to her la.

Today was an ok day! x)x)x)

express yourself {12:35 AM}

Sunday, December 3

50th's finally over. yay! the most fulfilling thing was the SM, before he left. he CLAPPED for us. yes. he turned, faced the band, and clap. for a good ten seconds. thats DAMN COOL. he actually bothered to look at us and what more, CLAP!! omg. coolness. so there's only the in-concert left now. x)x)x). i'm damn happy, yep, im just damn happy. there's many reason x)x)x)x)

express yourself {10:12 PM}